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Food Glorious Food

Lets just take a moment to pause in silent contemplation and fucking appreciation for food and eating!
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I went weeks without being able to eat recently.
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Actually, let’s be honest, it was nearly 2 months!


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Daily vomiting and excruciating pain…as I lost kg after kg I thought I’d never be able to enjoy food again.
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I was so weak and the chemo being injected into my veins to reduce the cancer to help me eat again was making me weaker…
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This can’t be it? I thought. This can’t be what ‘quality over quantity’ has come to. Because this is bullshit.
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But then magic happened. Just as suddenly as I’d stopped being able to eat I was once again able to eat again.
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And man am I eating!
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I am eating every fucking thing in sight!
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I am cooking delicious meals, savouring ingredients, sitting in ceremonial gratitude with each and every meal…I have never savoured flavours, textures and the sweet joy of eating in the way I am now.
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The gift of eating. The gift of food on my plate. The gift of it entering my body, of it feeding me (physically, emotionally and spiritually!), nourishing me, supporting my healing, my energy, my life…it is a beautiful treasure that I took for granted for many years.
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In fact, let’s be honest, I have used food to punish myself in the past.
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When I was weight training (pre cancer) I was on a strict diet of ‘can’ts’ and ‘shouldn’ts’ but this didn’t change after my diagnosis… not really… it just had a different guise… no sugar, no meat, no gluten, soy or dairy (ok the last three are allergies so I don’t really have a choice) … but, undoubtedly, often food came with the restriction of ‘no joy!’
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Well… no more!


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I plan to celebrate every fucking meal for the beautiful life giving gift it is, in Devine celebration and gratitude for how lucky I am to have food to eat and to be able to eat it!
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I see the joy now, and the magic and I an filled with gratitude for every morsel of food that passes my lips and feeds my body.
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Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for the wonderful gift of eating!
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Each meal I’ve eaten in recent weeks has been a deep and profound appreciation for the everyday, like I’ve never eaten before. It’s wonderful!

2 thoughts on “Food Glorious Food”

  1. Love it. To be able to really really appreciate the wonderful taste of food. Sure you have read Jon Kabat Zinns book. Mindfulness, The raisin experiment, and to really examine and taste a raisin in your mouth. Your post reminded me of that. Such appreciation. Happy to hear this…Ice Cream next Fi xxx Sending hugs and love xxx

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