I am a huge believer in the notion that our emotions effect our physical health.
When I was first diagnosed in January 2016 and was told that my ovarian cancer had spread throughout my abdominal cavity and into my chest cavity, my primary focus became centred around healing my lungs so that I could be approved for surgery. AND, as many of you know, I did and I was 🙂
So, now that, after 16 months I remission, I have two new tumours I am taking the same approach.
My new tumours are on my right lung and next to my left kidney. In Chinese medicine it is believed that the lungs hold grief, sorrow, frustration and regret. I have always been very open about the fact that grief is an emotion that I struggle to express so it is no surprise to me that my lungs are, in a sense, my emotional weak spot.
Interestingly, Chinese medicine also believes that the kidneys are the source of the life force and that when we show signs of dis-ease in or around our kidneys that it is symbolic of our life force leaving.
This makes perfect sense to me…I don’t process grief so my lungs get sick. My lungs are essential for life so my kidneys get sick….still with me?
Let me take this one step further.
If we are to now move on to look at a meridians* in the human body then something really interesting happens.
The exact point of my two new tumours are on the spleen meridian. Now this may sound like an odd realisation at first glance, but let me explain….
Many of you know that I had several organs removed in May 2016 as part of my major surgery to treat my cancer.
You would expect that, as a young woman I would have been most upset about the loss of my womb and ovaries and, with them, my ability to have children. Or perhaps you would expect me to be upset that I now have a colostomy bag. But no. In fact, I view these as exchanges I made for my life and I embrace them with gratitude (I have written about these extensively in other posts).
However, what pisses me off most about my surgery (in fact the only thing about it that pisses me off) is that I had my spleen removed.
This upsets me (and causes me grief) more than losing any of my other organs! (Nuts, I know!)
But why? You may ask…
Well, firstly, I realise, on reflection, that it’s because it wasn’t entirely necessary to remove my spleen. It was done so to avoid a complication during surgery. Secondly, your spleen has a significant role in your immune system. As a result, having your spleen removed means that you have to take life long antibiotics. This I HATE above all other aspects of my dis-ease.
I’m sure you will no doubt feel my anger and grief around my splenectomy and notice that this isn’t evident when I talk about my hysterectomy or colostomy.
So, it comes of no surprise to me at all that my two new tumours have appeared on my spleen meridian. In fact, it makes absolute perfect sense to me!
So, clearly I have some work to do on accepting that I have had my spleen removed…maybe I should have a spleen funeral/party…(too far?…)
On reflecting about this I realise that my biggest issue isn’t that I am concerned that my immune system is lowered because I no longer have a spleen – our bodies are remarkable and I know how my wonderful lymphatic system is able to work without my spleen. In fact, it is scientifically proven that 2 years after a splenectomy our liver takes over the majority of the spleen’s function. Now if that isn’t evidence of how incredible our bodies are then I don’t know what is.
No, what annoys and upsets me is having to take 4 antibiotic tablets every day because I KNOW that antibiotics negatively affect our gut health and our gut is also responsible for the majority fo our immunity. Crazy logic eh?! In fact, even in America (the powerhouse of pharmaceutical prescriptions) they don’t routinely prescribe life long antibiotics following a splenectomy.
Now, I know why I am on them…without a spleen a bacteria infection ‘could’ overwhelm my body very quickly and wipe me out without warning so they offer a safety net. AND, because the spleen is hugely responsible for our bodies creating a high temperature, pus and infection markers in our blood, it is not always immediately obvious that someone with a splenectomy has an infection until it is, in a sense, too late.
That doesn’t mean I am any less pissed off about taking them because, despite all this knowledge and understanding, I still know how important diet and nutrition is and I know that antibiotics undo all of the hard work I put into my strict diet.
Arghhhh…..so, I think we are all clear why my tumours have appeared where they have and also on what I need to work on.
To conclude I would like to highlight the main BENEFIT of not having a spleen: no one comes near you if they have even a hint of a cold, virus, sickness bug (etc) which means I never get ill! HUGE PERK!…and highly ironic that the person without a spleen never gets ill.
So, even in the mists of my frustration there is (always) a silver lining and something to be thankful for.
Wishing you all a great day!
Love and light, Fi xxx
Does any of this resonate with you?
* The meridian system is a concept in traditional Chinese medicine (TCM) about a path through which the life- energy known as “qi” flows.