gratitude, health, holistic health, kindness, ovarian cancer, positivity

Today I Rise Again

Today is a new day.

I rose today having felt what I was meant to feel, having seen what I was meant to see, having said what I was meant to say.

So many people ‘advised’ that I stop writing and that I focus on me. I know they meant this with the deepest kindness but writing ’is’ me focusing on me. It is my therapy, my release, my way of processing and feeling everything that is there to be felt.

I do not write for anyone else but myself – although, admittedly, it brings me so much joy to realise how my words have helped so many others.

I can’t help but wonder how different our world would be if someone had told Anne Frank to stop writing. I’m not suggesting I am anything like Anne Frank, a courageous young girl whom I have admired since first discovering her words when I myself too was only young, but I am suggesting that our stories are important, healing and essential. We must share our stories. We simply must.

I feel in a good place today, like I am emerging from something, like I am shedding an old version of myself and stepping forward into something new.

I sense change ahead, yes, but change isn’t necessarily bad and I find myself feeling a sense of excitement at this new adventure I find myself on.

I’ve been in worst places in the past four years since my diagnosis than I find myself in just now. There is, of course, one significant difference now. Now I don’t see chemotherapy as an option for me when the trial completely stops working (which it hasn’t, yet).

As I’ve written many times before, chemotherapy (and any treatment) is a very personal choice and I do not advocate for or against any options. But I do know that chemotherapy is not the right option for me. Not again. Not after 4 years ago. This is my inner guidance and I trust it profusely. Nothing and no one will ever change my mind.

So what are my options?

Just now, medically, it is to stay on the trial. It is to keep breathing in the gratitude that this wonderful cocktail of significantly less toxic drugs is doing something to slow down this disease (even if they can’t stop it completely).

But that is just the medical picture and, if I’ve learnt nothing else on this journey it is that the picture is bigger than what can and can’t be done in a hospital. There is so much more that can be done for my mind, body, spirit and soul.

So, yes, it is accurate when I say I am excited because I find myself wondering ‘what if there is another way?’

And that’s exactly what I intend to spend the next 16 weeks finding out.

Why 16 weeks? Because that is the length of time someone with ovarian cancer is on chemotherapy for…AND, more importantly, because 16 weeks today I plan to get my adventurous soul onto a plane to Bali where I plan to spend 4 weeks healing with my gorgeous husband…something that will only be possible if my lungs stay stable…so I’m excited…I have a focus, I have an aim and I have a shit load of passion.

It ain’t over and, as ever, I ain’t dead yet (motherf*ckers)

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Sprouting For Joy – Raw Food Day 6

Sprouting For Joy – Raw Food Day 6Wow it’s already 6 days since I started eating 100% raw and I am feeling AMAZING!

Today’s video is all about sprouts! No not the kind you avoid at Christmas but sprouted nuts, seeds and lentils and why they are a must in a raw food diet. Actually why they are a must in everyone’s diet!

These are super tasty, super healthy and, best of all, super easy to prepare!

I hope you enjoy the video and feel inspired to ‘sprout for joy’ too!

Love and light, Fi xx

New to my page? In Jan 2016 , at the age of just 30, I was diagnosed with non-genetic, stage four ovarian cancer. There is no stage five. Since then I’ve quit my job as a researcher and retrained as a yoga instructor. I’ve launched my own yoga business and spend my time teaching and practicing yoga and ensuring I have optimal nutritional, physical and emotional health. I also recently wrote a book about my journey back to wholeness.

I’ve been shortlisted for ‘The Health Blogger of the Year’.

It would be super awesome if you could head here and vote to help me win.

You don’t need to provide any details (not even your name!), you just have to tick a box!


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Support – Raw Food Day 5

Over the past 21 months I have received unwavering support from both friends and family, for which I am eternally grateful.

Despite my positive outlook and the fact that my cancer miraculously went into remission last year this does not mean I am ‘cured’.

In reality, statistically the chances of me dying from my cancer in the next three years are 83%* (these odds are increased further due to my lack of a spleen). This is not the odds of a recurrence, these are the odds of death.

Now, as a researcher, (and as a generally stubborn individual) the only reason I like statistics is so that I can disprove them. For this reason, many of you have witnessed me making radical (and perhaps sometimes crazy) lifestyle changes.

I am now embarking on a journey of eating 100% raw food. This is not because I think it will ‘cure’ my cancer, but rather because it is my strong, personal belief that this will give my body the best chance of surviving in spite of cancer.

So, why am I spending a Saturday morning telling you this? Simply because I need your support. I don’t expect anyone else to switch to a raw food diet (not even my lovely hubby), I love you all just as you are. However, I do need your encouragement. Whilst you can eat whatever you like in front of me (yes even steak!), please don’t offer it to me. Instead, please support my food choices. Please don’t pass judgement over what I eat either. There is nothing worse than when someone says “I feel bad that you can’t eat this.” When you make these comments what I actually hear is “I feel bad that you have stage four cancer and I don’t.”

In reality, I don’t mind not eating what you eat, ever! 

Most importantly don’t feel that we can’t go out for meals or eat together. I will always find a way of eating something raw when we are out and I LOVE food.

So, in short. Please encourage and support me as I make this change in my life. It will not always be easy for me and I really need your help. It is what I need to do for me** in order to give my body the best chance of survival. At the very least it will enable me to say “at least I tried.”

Love and light, Fi xx

*I prefer to look at it as 17% chance of surviving 💜 

**I wish to highlight that I don’t think everyone with cancer (or any disease for that matter) should switch to a similar diet, nor do I pass judgement on any one else’s diet choices. Rather, this is what I instinctively feel is right for me at this moment xxx

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The Importance of Going the Extra Mile

Today I had an absolutely incredible experience I want to share with you all!

A dear friend invited me out for afternoon tea at Malmaison Dundee – this was a potential nightmare for me!…due to range of allergies and stage four cancer I follow a strict no dairy, no gluten and no sugar diet and, historically, that basically eliminates everything in an afternoon tea.

I nervously called the hotel and explained my allergies weeks in advance. ‘Not a problem at all’ they explained. Still, I was nervous. I so didn’t want to be ill and, selfishly, I also didn’t want to be faced with a dull salad I could make at home while my friend was spoiled.

Well the pastry chef went above and beyond! She carefully prepared a beautiful selection of food for me. Each item met my dietary needs and she even carefully didn’t use any artificial sweeteners either! She went one step further and came to introduce herself and explain genuinely that she had enjoyed the challenge of creating something new!

This was without doubt the best eating experience I have had since diagnosis! For the first time in months I felt I was eating like a ‘normal’ person and it was incredible! The simple act of this wonderful woman taking pride in her work gave me an amazing experience.

In fact, all of the staff were exceptional and I feel truly blessed!

This post is a HUGE thank you to Sara the pastry chef at Malmaison in Dundee and the rest of the team…especially our waitress too (she was awesome as well)! The world needs more people like you who take a pride in their work. Thank you for being awesome!

Unsurprisingly I gave Sara one of my random Act of Kindness envelopes too!

Perhaps we can all learn from people like Sara. We can…

  • Enjoy our work
  • Take a challenge as an opportunity to learn
  • Help others
  • Smile
  • Be kind
  • Go the extra mile

I feel truely blessed to have had such a lovely experience.

Thank you to everyone involved!

Love and light, Fi xxx

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Love Organic

I’m not going to be one of those people who preaches that everyone should be vegan…even I LOVE meat…

However(!)…I do preach that people should eat with a responsibility for the source of their food and the treatment of the animals before they become meat AND the treatment of the farmers.

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I only eat organic not only because of all of the toxic chemicals, antibiotics, hormones, pesticides (and so on) added to non organic food but also because it makes it easier to trace the source of my food and, in doing so, allows me to take responsibility for its impact on the environment.

Similarly I only eat whole foods and make everything from fresh ingredients so that I know, without any doubt, the source of everything that I eat.

I am dairy and gluten free due to allergies and, although I follow a plant based diet I am only 99% vegan. When I do eat meat I ensure it is organic, and when I eat fish I ensure it is wild (never farmed).

I could probably write a book on the research I have done into food in the last year as it is an area I am extremely passionate about, however I won’t go on and on in this post (although questions are welcome). What I will say is that I know organic is more expensive and yes our household food bill has risen this past year HOWEVER is it a small price to pay for health? ABSOLUTELY!

For me it’s just about priorities and I prioritise knowing exactly what is in the food I eat. We live in a society where we find it acceptable to spend £3 on a takeaway coffee but won’t pay £2 for organic eggs. Seriously!?

It is my firm belief that the food you eat defines your health.

This is why, this year, hubby and I will begin growing as much of our own food as possible using our existing greenhouse and also installing a mini polly tunnel.

Join me in choosing organic food, taking responsibility for your impact on the environment and having consideration for the animals and farmers involved in the food industry.

It doesn’t need to mean your outgoings each month are any more…it just might mean one less takeaway coffee or one less glass of wine (for example)…

Could you go organic?

Love and light, Fi xx

You can read more about Fi Munro on her website and public Facebook page.

She is also on twitter, instagram and youtube.

She is currently writing a book due for release in 2017.

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What does ‘sugar free’ mean?

The trouble with being a researcher with a cancer diagnosis is that I want to read everything I can to create a holistic treatment plan.

Something of a controversy in the literature is opposing views on sugar consumption following a cancer diagnosis.

The literature all confirms that being overweight increases your likeliness of getting cancer but what if you were a healthy weight when you got diagnosed?…could limiting your sugar consumption aid your treatment and reduce your chance a relapse?

Well the answers aren’t that straight forward.

The books I’ve read all agree that limiting sugar consumption should be a lifelong commitment following a cancer diagnosis. In particular ‘radical remissions‘, ‘anti-cancer‘ and the ‘cancer whisperer‘ all talk about this at length as do many academic articles. However, Macmillan and Cancer Research UK both state that there is not enough evidence to support the need to limit sugar consumption and that during treatment cancer patients should eat whatever they want to maintain strength and weight.

Sugar in your diet doesn’t directly increase the risk of cancer, or encourage it to grow. But sugar contains no useful nutrients, apart from energy, and we can get all the energy we need from healthier sources. So it’s best to limit the amount of sugar in your diet.

However when cancer patients are given a PET scan they are injected with a glucose based radioactive dye because it goes to the cancer cells first, thus highlighting them on the scan results. This is because, whilst all cells require glucose, cancerous cells ‘feed’ on glucose faster than ‘normal’ cells.

So there lies the controversy. On the one hand we are told that sugar is of no harm to someone with cancer and, often, encouraged to eat it in order to gain or maintain weight. However, on the other hand, research shows that cancerous cells will feed on sugar faster than other cells.

So what’s my conclusion?

I know that whilst recovering from surgery, when I ate sugar I felt more pain in the following hours than I did on a normal basis.

I know I craved sugar on a ridiculous level in the months before my diagnosis – we are talking a couple of bars of chocolate, a can of fizzy juice, a bag of sweets AND several large spoonfuls of Nutella each day! This is a common factor in most cancer journeys, with people often reporting similar abnormal sugar cravings prior to their diagnosis.

Finally I know that my CA125 levels reduced the most rapidly during the chemo cycles I consumed the least sugar.

So, whether it’s a placebo affect or not, I still made the decision to cease all sugar consumption and I tell you what – I feeling awesome for it!

But what about ‘natural’ sugars?

Now…let’s get one thing straight…all food we consume is turned into glucose for our cells. When I say I’ve cut out sugar I’m talking refined, processed sugar and ‘white’ foods.


I still consume fruit – yes it contains fructose but it is in a form that my body has to work to convert it. Also the nutrients it provides are essential to maintaining a healthy immune system – this is essential during chemotherapy treatment. I do however ensure I eat a larger amount of vegetables that fruit: about a 80-20% ratio.

Also, I very rarely juice…that’s a whole other story!…


I rarely eat honey. It is essentially glucose and has the same effect as eating sugar. When I do use it it’s just a teaspoon in a cup of hot water when I feel a cold coming as it usually stops it in its tracks.

Agave syrup v agave nectar

If you are in a particular need of something sweet you can use agave nectar which can be bought in most health food shops. A word of warning though…agave nectar is not to be confused with agave syrup which is made in the same way as processed corn syrup and just as bad for your health.

Personally I don’t use either as I now find them too sweet.

White bread, flour, rice and potatoes

I have a gluten allergy and so haven’t eaten white bread or flour for years however now I am also limiting my intake of white potatoes (favouring sweet potatoes) and white rice (favouring brown or red rice or lentils).

Dark chocolate

I thought dark chocolate was a ‘safe’ option but many of the packs I’ve looked at contain at least 25g of sugar per 100g. That means they are made up of a quarter of sugar! Just picture that! I even found one that was 42g of sugar!

Instead I now use raw cacao chips which are 100% sugar free and taste great. I like them over sliced pear with some grated ginger. Amazing!

Satisfying my sweet tooth

There is still lots(!) of puddings available once you’ve gone sugar free. “I quit sugar” is a great place to start.  Here I’ve learnt how to make sugar free Nutella, sugar free ginger biscuits and sugar free avocado and chocolate mouse. They all tasted amazing and were super quick and easy to make!

A word of warning…
Cutting out refined sugar is hard. It’s one of the most addictive substances we consume. However, the less of it you eat, the less of it you crave. Also your taste buds change…you start to find that other natural food tastes much sweeter than before.

A final note…

All of this could be nonsense in terms of helping my body to heal from cancer. I could stand just as good a chance whilst eating cake every day. I just don’t know.

What I do now is that I come through my chemo reasonably well compared to some other people. My cancer markers are down. I no longer take painkillers. I was diagnosed with stage four cancer and yet just seven months later I was told I was in remission and today, all things considered, I’m very well!

All that really matters is that you eat what feels right for you and your treatment plan.

Love and light, Fi xx

I originally published this post on 29th April 2016 x