It’s a funny old relationship we have, you and me.
Sometimes I think while you stop others from doing things, you propel me forward.
What am I afraid of? I don’t really know. I’ve faced so much pain I’m not sure there is anything left to fear.
Over the years, in the past, I’ve felt the fear of not being safe in my own home, my own body and my own life.
But, as a result, I don’t fear death, pain or grief. I’ve befriended so many of life’s enemies that invoke fear in my peers.
Yet I do still feel you. I feel you when I open up to being vulnerability, to authenticity, to truth. But I power on. I keep facing you and opening my heart because in doing so I am uncovering myself, I am growing and learning and truly feeling all that life has to offer.
I am so grateful for you, my dear friend named fear because when I feel you I know I am pushing myself to the edges of my boundaries and, in doing so, I know I am growing into the best version of myself.
Thank you for being my marker, my flag, my guide.
This is the kind of fear I crave – but none of that shitty life threatening fear please…I’ve had my fair share of that already!
Love, Fi xx
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Fi is Currently:
Looking forward to a weekend of kayaking.
Resting after treatment yesterday.
Enjoying the imminent arrival of autumn.
Excited for Ewan’s birthday later this month!