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A special dog walk (video)

Today was a very special day for me…I managed my first post surgery dog walk! It was the shortest (and slowest!) walk ever but it was a massive step for me and a great reminder of just how far I’ve come in the last 6 weeks.

I’m feeling pretty pleased with myself…and I think Robbie (the dog) is too!


Love and light, Fi xxx

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Home is where the fur babies are…(video)

Well I got home late Thursday afternoon and it’s just been amazing!

I am feeling much better that I did the last time I was discharged from hospital. This, of course, is helped by the lovely greeting I got from our fur babies who I had missed so much!


I’m still by no means recovered but I’m definitely in a better place both emotionally and physically than I was two weeks ago.

It was so lovely to see our animals and sit in our garden with my husband and just relax. I realised that for the past five weeks I’ve not been alone. I’ve had constant monitoring and tests, day and night. This meant that just simply sitting in the garden alone with our rescue dog was an incredibly magical moment. I’m thankful once again for being reminded to enjoy the little things in life and not take them for granted.


I’m not going to lie, there has of course been tough moments. Moments where I was too tired to move and just went for naps on the floor because it was the only place that felt comfortable. But, even having the option to do that, rather than being confined to a hospital bed, made these tough moments bearable. I know that may sound crazy but after five weeks of being directed in where I could go and what I could do, just wanting to rest on the floor and then actually being able to do so is strangely empowering.


I’ve still got a long way to go in my recovery but I’ve made great progress so far so I’m hopeful for the next few weeks. I restart chemo in just 10 days so, in preparation, I need to gain as much weight and strength as possible – after loosing two stone in hospital along with a lot of muscle wastage too. So that’s where my focus is – cooking organic meals, eating little and often and resting as much as I can while also trying to regain strength through gentle walking in the garden.

The light at the end of the tunnel is shining brighter every day.

Love and light, Fi xxx 

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Rescued by a Dog…

When I got a rescue dog two weeks ago I thought I was doing him a favour…that I was rescuing him…I was wrong.

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In the last two weeks our new addition to the family has ensured that every day, even when I don’t feel like it, I get up early and I go outside. So now, before I do anything else I am getting fresh air in my lungs!

He has also ensured that, come rain or shine, I go for a walk every single day. So even when I’m tired and want to curl up on the sofa I am still having to go out…for him…

…and you know what?…I always feel better after our walk. Yes sometimes I feel tired, and yes sometimes this tiredness results in a couple of hours sleeping. But I always feel more alive.

And what’s more important…he’s giving a purpose to my day.

So whilst I thought I had rescued him…in reality…I think he’s rescuing me.

love and light, Fi xx

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Rescue Dog…

Exciting news!!! Today we rescued a dog from The Dogs Trust and now I have a new fur baby to help with my healing!

Meet Robbie…a 13 year old Cocker Spaniel whose owner sadly died. He is deaf, has arthritis and fatty (non cancerous) lumps and I love him to bits already!…I just hope our cats and chickens love him as much as I do…

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love and light, Fi xx