health, holistic health, ovarian cancer, positivity, yoga

Do You ‘Self-Destruct’?

Have you ever slipped into ‘self-destruction’ mode when what you really needed was ‘self-care’?

I certainly have…and more recently than you might think!

Lately I’ve found myself making all kinds of excuses for this – ‘I’ve lost a lot of weight I should eat high calorie processed food to regain it’ – ‘my body is tired, it’s ok to eat sugar’ – ‘I’m too exhausted to go out in nature today’ – and you should see my Amazon purchases after a hospital admission!…yes all books but no definitely not ones I needed!

All of these were excuses for not supporting my body, mind and spirit to properly recover. Instead I was giving myself a hard time, not acknowledging reality and, in fact, making my situation worse through self-judgment rather than much needed self-love.

Realisation, finally, hit me yesterday when I said to my nurse “I’m just too tired to do anything” – now, firstly, dramatic statements like this (in my experience) are usually just excuses and secondly, her reply was the wake up all I needed.

She reminded me what I’ve been through lately: 9 weeks of vomiting; 10 days in and out of hospital; two stone weight loss; an abdominal drain of malignant fluid; being told my cancer had spread (again); an IV of two broad spectrum antibiotics for a week; unable to eat for over a month; starting an immunotherapy trial…need I go on?

I realised that despite all of this happening, what I hadn’t done was give myself the necessary time to properly understand the effect this has had on my emotional and spiritual health.

Yes I’d started lots of self care practices – yoga, acupuncture, reiki, reflexology, Body Stress Release etc but I had done so with the frustrated mentality of ‘why isn’t it fixed yet?!’

What I’d needed to do instead was to treat the wounded parts of myself with care and compassion (like you would a small child – a friend recently suggested)

So yesterday I embraced what these parts needed (in particular after a long day in hospital getting dose two of my immunotherapy) – an afternoon cuddling my hubby in the sofa with Ozzy watching comedies…tick!

Then today I did the same. I didn’t get up at the crack of dawn like usual but instead had a lazy morning getting up only in time for my medication; then I sat about in my pjs eating a leisurely breakfast while watching Ted talks before me and Ozzy set out for a long walk in nature just the two of us – allowing me some valuable alone time in nature.

It feels so refreshing to be giving myself ‘permission’ to acknowledge that I am wounded rather than fighting this reality with frustration. In doing so, I am allowing myself the time it takes to truly heal and become whole again.

I wonder if you’ve acknowledged the wounds you’ve gained recently or in the past and if you’ve given yourself permission to take the time and space you need(ed) to heal?

Or perhaps you can relate to being in the ‘self-destruct’ mode through diet, exercise, indulgent or impulsive shopping, self judgement or anything else?

I’d love to hear your thoughts and experiences.

Love and light, Fi xxx

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Sprouting For Joy – Raw Food Day 6

Sprouting For Joy – Raw Food Day 6Wow it’s already 6 days since I started eating 100% raw and I am feeling AMAZING!

Today’s video is all about sprouts! No not the kind you avoid at Christmas but sprouted nuts, seeds and lentils and why they are a must in a raw food diet. Actually why they are a must in everyone’s diet!

These are super tasty, super healthy and, best of all, super easy to prepare!

I hope you enjoy the video and feel inspired to ‘sprout for joy’ too!

Love and light, Fi xx

New to my page? In Jan 2016 , at the age of just 30, I was diagnosed with non-genetic, stage four ovarian cancer. There is no stage five. Since then I’ve quit my job as a researcher and retrained as a yoga instructor. I’ve launched my own yoga business and spend my time teaching and practicing yoga and ensuring I have optimal nutritional, physical and emotional health. I also recently wrote a book about my journey back to wholeness.

I’ve been shortlisted for ‘The Health Blogger of the Year’.

It would be super awesome if you could head here and vote to help me win.

You don’t need to provide any details (not even your name!), you just have to tick a box!

Namaste!

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Raw Cucumber Side Salad – Raw Food Day 3

Raw Cucumber Side Salad – Raw Food Day 3 VIDEO BLOGHello!
So after my video post yesterday, a few of you have been asking for some of my recipes and I thought the easiest way would be to create a video of me making one of them…I need some practice as things get messy! Hahahaha!

For this recipe you will need:

  • A cucumber. 
  • A piece of ginger (skin on). 
  • Apple Cider Vinegar (you can also use balsamic). 
  • Extra Virgin Olive Oil. 
  • Miso Paste. (Miss this out if you are strict raw). 
  • Honey. (Miss this out if you are strict vegan).
  • Seeds – I use sunflower and pumpkin seeds (unroasted!) 

I’ve said it already, but I’ll say it again. I am not a believer of following a strict and compromised diet just so I can say I am ‘raw’ or so I can say I am ‘vegan’. I am all about eating the healthiest and most nutritious food. So there is honey in this dish (not vegan) because it is super great for your health. There is also miso paste (not raw) as it has many nutritious benefits. As ever, do what is right for you and with a focus on your optimal health. 
Buy organic wherever possible.
Let me know what you think of the recipe and share your ideas with me too.
Love and light, Fi xxx

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In August 2017 I published a book about my story and how I strive to live an incredible life with stage four (‘terminal’) cancer — Love, Light and Mermaid Tails: One Woman’s Healing Journey Back to Wholeness Through Stage Four Cancer is now available to buy in UK and USA on Amazon.

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Be Prepared – Raw Food Day 2

So it’s only day two of eating raw as a means of boosting my health and getting as many lovely live nutrients into my system and I’ve already got some advice to share. Prepare, prepare, prepare!
This morning I spent about 20-30 mins creating some awesome raw dishes for my breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks that I then popped in my fridge ready to enjoy throughout the day. It was no hassle and no big deal – just 30 mins and that it, job done! No food prep needed later tonight.

This was especially important today as, like many days, I’m out and about teaching lots of yoga classes and tonight I’m going to my mid week evening yoga class as a participant. Namaste! The last thing I want when I get home late after class is to be starving and wondering what to eat. Instead I just need to open my fridge and serve it up. Delicious!

One thing that’s being brought to my attention is the misconception that ‘going raw’ is just about eating carrot sticks. Eh no!

There are now so many raw gourmet chefs out there and it is incredible what you can now make and eat raw!

Today I made rawslaw, ‘pickled’ cucumber, courgetti and pink beetroot humous. Ok, I know humous isn’t raw as chickpeas are pre cooked, however I am more about optimal health than following a strict or pressured diet that is bad for my emotional health!

Apparently this is known as being a ‘nutritarian’ – someone who picks the most nutritious food available to them at any given time. 

I also discovered that black beans can be used to make a DELICIOUS chocolate spread that’s sugar free, and vegan. Even my hubby, ever the sceptic, was impressed! (Recipe in my video).

So, all in all, I’m loving learning new recipes, exploring food and learning how to to ‘uncook’. Here’s to what food discoveries tomorrow will bring!

Happy eating!

Love and light, Fi xx

Follow me on YouTube, Facebook, Instagram and Twitter.

⭐️I’ve been shortlisted for ‘The Health Blogger of the Year’. ⭐️

It would be super awesome if you could head here and vote to help me win.

You don’t need to provide any details (not even your name!), you just have to tick a box!

The winner receives a prize of £600 and if I win then I pledge to use it all for my random act of kindness to help spread more joy and raise awareness for ovarian cancer!

With your help I can reach more people and help to spread awareness of ovarian cancer; living with stage four cancer; invisible disabilities and so much more! 💜

In August 2017 I published a book about my story and how I strive to live an incredible life with ‘terminal’ cancer — Love, Light and Mermaid Tails: One Woman’s Healing Journey Back to Wholeness Through Stage Four Cancer 

New to my page? In Jan 2016 , at the age of just 30, I was diagnosed with non-genetic, stage four ovarian cancer. There is no stage five. Since then I’ve been campaigning to raise awareness of ovarian cancer in the hope that my diagnosis will help save lives. I have been handing out random acts of kindness to strangers as envelopes containing £20 and a card with the symptoms of ovarian cancer. I do this in the hope of spreading kindness and joy whilst also helping to get people to take about ovarian cancer! 🌈