ovarian cancer

When Cancer Plays a ‘Dick Move’

So, in the words of a good friend of mine, cancer has played a ‘dick move’ and surprised me with new disease right across my pelvis.

Needless to say this was not the news I was expecting 😭

I’ve had nearly two months of daily nausea and frequent projectile vomiting which led to a hospital admission in France. Due to this my incredible oncology team in Scotland have been doing various tests to uncover the cause. As well as abdomen, chest and pelvic CTs I’ve also had a head CT and various blood tests. Everything kept coming back clear and I was beginning to feel like I was losing my mind.

Then, last week on my pregnancy yoga training, I started to experience excruciating pain in my left hand side. Initial scans suggested an abscess. However, when it was drained it showed no sign of infection but instead the fluid was high in white blood cells.

When the scans and the fluid results were reviewed together it was confirmed that I have new disease that has spread right across my pelvis (it was previously thought to be a large pocket of fluid).

I am devastated…switching from numb to angry to terrified.

There are two options:-

1. I can have surgery to remove it. The operation would be major and extensive. This would delay any treatment until I am completely healed. This delay could potentially cause the cancer to return to my lungs.

2. I can start immunotherapy next week and hope it shrinks this disease.

As surgery is a huge risk I have decided to go ahead with immunotherapy and if it doesn’t work to review surgery at a later date.

I’m shaken by the news as it’s not what I was expecting. I feel weak; nauseous; exhausted and fragile and I’ll need some time to process all of this.

Thank you all once again for holding me on my journey.

Also a HUGE thanks again to everyone who donated to my Avastin fund so that I could make it this far and actually start immunotherapy. You have literally changed my life and I am forever grateful for your generosity, kindness and support 💜💖 thank you!xxx


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5 thoughts on “When Cancer Plays a ‘Dick Move’”

  1. SO sorry to hear your latest news Fi. You don’t deserve it, and how miserable for you to have all the nausea etc. However, now you have made the decision to go ahead with the immunotherapy and you will be in my thoughts and prayers for a successful shrinkage of the disease. Your usual positive attitude will contribute to it’s success I am sure, along with all us out here rooting for you. ❤️ Judith.

  2. Good choice with the immunotherapy. That should keep everything in check with you lungs. Fly high girl and don’t look back. Keep living with joy. You have taught all of us so much about spirit.

  3. Checking in on you and hope when we don’t hear from you everything will be going well. All of us will be lifting up on your next road of treatment. I’ve always like your this is what stage 4 cancer looks like. I’m still dealing with you look so good but I just wished I felt as good. Nothing where it was before but I’m bloating again and bad indigestion water does it too. Hoping my numbers come back good. Hard with OVC that at any stage it can very well comeback again. Hang tight my lady.

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