During my last checkup my oncologist explained that my cancer markers have risen. Last month they tripled and this month they went up a little bit more. They are now at the top of ‘healthy’. However, this may indicate that treatment did not get rid of all disease as we originally thought.She asked if I wanted a scan to see where the cancer was. However, this gave me the opportunity to have an honest chat and tell her that I don’t want to have chemo again.
This is for a number of personal reasons but one is because the toxicity would cause further damage to my kidneys and make my magnesium issue worse.
You may think this is minor, however, my Hypomagnesemia is actually very serious and, along with the debilitating side affects I have often posted here, worsening my situation could cause irritability of the nervous system with risk of tremors, seizures, cardiac arrest, coma, intellectual disability or death [to name a few].
After an open discussion, during which I was treated as an equal part in the decisions made, my oncologist explained that she supports my decision. She agreed that further chemo would make my Hypomagnesemia worse. This would be very detrimental to my health and possibly remove all quality of life which, I’m sure you know, is very important to me.
Also, at this stage my diagnosis is medically ‘incurable’ and further chemo would not make a significant difference to my life expectancy. We are talking an extra couple of months and, for me, that’s not worth the price of my quality of life.
So we have agreed that she will no longer monitor my cancer markers and that I won’t get scanned. There is no point.
My positivity hasn’t wavered, my hope isn’t diminished and above all my joy still overflows!
I will keep on LIVING and spreading kindness and positivity for as long as my heart keeps beating.
I encourage you to do the same.
Love and light xxx
Ps. This is what stage four cancer looks like #ButYouLookSoWell 💕💜😘