FiMunro

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Emotionally preparing for surgery: Chemo 4 – Day 21

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Well I did it – I blogged every day for a complete chemo cycle. 21 days of insight into my life with cancer. Tomorrow I should be going for my pre-assessments for chemo 5 but as I’m heading for surgery soon I’m not able to have another chemo at this stage (until after I’ve recovered from surgery) because it will weaken my immune system too much. Instead I am walking into the unknown…

I’m not sure what the next two weeks will feel like without chemo and many questions and, also, many doubts are running through my head…

  • Will I feel my ‘cancer’ symptoms return because I’m not receiving chemo?
  • Will I continue to feel tired?
  • Will my pain return?
  • Will my abdominal fluid return?
  • Is surgery the best, or indeed only, option?
  • Do my questions come from a place of fear or a place of knowledge..from extensive (and also often contradictory) research?…

The list goes on and I’m sure it’s normal to have these questions but I can’t help but think that they should have been addressed. I know that the answer to these questions are obvious to the people providing my healthcare…but they are not obvious to me. Instead they only serve to cause unnecessary fear and stress – both of which are known factors for creating a cancer thriving environment. Ironic…

I wish I’d asked these questions when I last saw my oncologist.

I also wish the answers were just given to me, without the need to ask.

Or that the answers were easily accessible…

This reminds me of the need to take more of an active role in my healthcare plan and, as a result, I am doing my research and putting together an extensive list of questions to ask my surgeon. This, I feel, will allow me to take back some control in a journey which is often hard to navigate but one which I hope to do so as a valued member of a collaborative team.

Love and light, Fi xx

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Author: Fi Munro

I am a 31 year old woman diagnosed with stage four ovarian cancer. I blog about my cancer journey and the importance of maintaining holistic physical, emotional and spiritual health. I also talk about the importance of eating the right food...a lot! Get in touch on twitter: @fkmunro

One thought on “Emotionally preparing for surgery: Chemo 4 – Day 21

  1. That’s a great idea. I was never completely thinking clearly so every time I went to see my surgeon or had any appointment at all with any of my health professionals I did two things. One: I always had a family member with me to LISTEN as I did not have the bet recall. Cancer will do that to you. Secondly I always had a list of questions prepared in my journal that I would take with me to every appointment and write down what was said back to me. I had my ass covered…literally.

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